Posts by Taylor S.

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A 1914 generation question

by Pwned in

i was around in 1995, barely, but i dont remember any talks or articles where the new light about the generation of 1914. did they change w/o coming right out and saying so,or was there a talk.

especially in regards to the mission statement or whatever in the awake, did they make an announcement or did they just hope no one would notice?

i just cant believe that there wasnt a mass exodus after that, my family never mentioned the change to me, i didnt even know til years later on this site.

Taylor S.

GaryBuss: ..... the Watch Tower Publishing Corporation as a business, was selected by God as his business on earth in 1918 and then that was changed to 1919 (but that was not really a change since it was only moved one year). God is a business man. It was a pick between the Ford Motor Company and Watch Tower Printing Corporation. Ford was having problems with wheel bearings on it's Model T car and Tower Printing had all it's teachings wrong so God picked Tower Printing.

That's funny as hell, Gary ...

I guess God chose WatchTower Printing because he knew nothing about Ford's little bearing thingie issues.

After all, he'd never created a Model T

. . . but he does have the #1 best seller of all time under his belt.

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Stealing Paradise

by Taylor S. in

just got my memorial invite.

the only thing new about this year, is my knowledge ... due mostly from finding this site.

i normally take the invite from my mom, tuck it away to hit the trash along with those mags she leaves all time.

The only thing new about this year, is my knowledge ... due mostly from finding this site. I normally take the invite from my mom, tuck it away to hit the trash along with those mags she leaves all time. Actually, I'd gotten into a ritual of disposing of jdub crap without a backward glance or a second thought.

Now it's different. Now I care.

I want my mom out, but I have a conundrum ... Pioneering for all these years is killing her, but the knowledge that I have would be even more devastating. She gave me the invite today and while she was talking about it, I blacked out. Mental images of old mans lies, deceits and manipulations in the interest, for the most part, of selling books ... flashed through my mind like a roller-dex out of control. I pictured her sweating on that corner in the summer glare and heat. I pictured climbing up and down those stairs, in all sorts of neighborhoods, confident that Jehovah will protect her.

I want her out so badly ... but convincing her of the truth about THE TRUTH might kill us both.

I just can't bring myself do it. Though she did get my email about the WW11 era tract and was extremely happy about it. She said her and my aunt learning explore cyberspace and I expected that to make me happy, its a good thing, they'll stumble across things to open their eyes etc, etc, .... yeah, I should've felt happy .....

.... but all I felt was crappy. How horrible is it of me to wanna steal paradise from my mom's eyes.

I feel so bad today.

But I'll get over it.

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If you could give one document ....

by Taylor S. in

Taylor S.

Just got my memorial invite.

The only thing new about this year, is my knowledge ... due mostly from finding this site. I normally take the invite from my mom, tuck it away to hit the trash along with those mags she leaves all time. Actually, I'd gotten into a ritual of disposing of jdub crap without a backward glance or a second thought.

Now it's different. Now I care.

I want my mom out, but I have a conundrum ... Pioneering for all these years is killing her, but the knowledge that I have would be even more devastating. She gave me the invite today and while she was talking about it, I blacked out. Mental images of old mans lies, deceits and manipulations in the interest, for the most part, of selling books ... flashed through my mind like a roller-dex out of control. I pictured her sweating on that corner in the summer glare and heat. I pictured climbing up and down those stairs, in all sorts of neighborhoods, confident that Jehovah will protect her.

I want her out so badly ... but convincing her of the truth about THE TRUTH might kill us both.

I just can't bring myself do it. Though she did get my email about the WW11 era tract and was extremely happy about it. She said her and my aunt learning explore cyberspace and I expected that to make me happy, its a good thing, they'll stumble across things to open their eyes etc, etc, .... yeah, I should've felt happy .....

.... but all I felt was crappy. How horrible is it of me to wanna steal paradise from my mom's eyes.

I feel so bad today.

But I'll get over it.

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Exploring your Faith ... the Dubs.

by Taylor S. in

i try not to draw conclusions .

about things with ?absolute?

certainty, especially not something as subjective as the belief in an almighty.. .

Taylor S.

That was a post I made to an online group talking about religion and God. The thread immediately disappeared in cyberland ... but I still managed to send it out through other channels.

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Exploring your Faith ... the Dubs.

by Taylor S. in

i try not to draw conclusions .

about things with ?absolute?

certainty, especially not something as subjective as the belief in an almighty.. .

Taylor S.

I try not to draw conclusions

. . . about things with ?absolute? certainty, especially not something as subjective as the belief in an Almighty.

But I do understand those who question things. If God does exist and he?s a God of love ? then when they inevitably stand before him, he should see into their hearts and understand their ?reasonable doubt?. How could he not see that his imperfect creations might be confused by all the options out there?

I can also understand how people hold onto faith like a life raft.

I was raised and led to believe that my faith was the truth, the one truth, and I designed my life around the idea that if I did everything the bible told me to do ? believed that all instructions handed down by God?s one earthly organization were ?spiritual food in due season? and ?heavenly guidance? from above and was to be followed without question ? then, and only then, would I be rewarded with Eternal Life in an earthly paradise.

This of course would be after the battle of Armageddon where all the evil ones on earth, billions of people (all those NOT a member of God?s one earthly organization ? aka THE ORG) would be slaughtered and eaten by birds.

And lastly, that decisive battle, the big A, was right around the corner. The battle where God finally proves to Satan the Devil that humans can not manage there own affairs ? and its foolish to disregard his orders. You know the story: thousands of years of human suffering all because a talking snake told a naked woman to eat a piece of fruit.

Anyway ? that little matter will be finally settled at Armageddon.

So after being indoctrinated with these beliefs, I spent the first twenty years of my life defending them ? and smugly looking down my nose at those who just didn?t get it.

Then I started to think for myself, separate myself from the lemmings and explored all theories and ideas about life and God ? an exploration which was strongly discouraged by the organization known as Jehovah?s Witnesses and ultimately lead to my departure. If anybody has ever believed something all their lives, and then found out in one hideous instant that it was all bulls**t ? then you understand how bitter a pill it is to swallow. Six million Jehovah?s Witnesses around the world provide the slave labor for a small ?Governing Body? of men (who profess to have sole access to God)? who sit atop the 1 Billion dollar publishing empire called the Watchtower Bible and Tract Society in Brooklyn, NY.

Believe what you want . . .

but never let anyone tell you not to explore,

not to investigate the roots of your own faith. Because, sometimes the Emperor really is naked, and you?re not just tripping . . . a God of love would want you to investigate and to form your own conclusions as to his greatness.

I did, and the truth about The Truth blew my mind.

Here?s a great discussion board for all those have been Dubs (Witnesses) or who know someone who?s still enslaved by the Org, or maybe just questioning other matters of religion ?.

JWD -- http://www.jehovahs-witness.com

I left that organization when I was nineteen ? and this JWD board has turned out to be the therapy I never knew I needed.

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Allosaurus & Eve ...

by Taylor S. in

i was always fascinated with dinosaurs as a kid.

i remembering asking my mother how come the bible doesn't mention the dinosaurs ... i mean, if he created everything, he must've created the dinosaurs.

why no mention?

Taylor S.

Yeah Brutus ...

they were here to cultivate the earth for man ... which seems to be the conception of a lot of witnesses and others. though it seems strange to me that a BEING capable of creating a brontosaurus out of nothing ... would ever need any of his work 'cultivated'.

but i'm just a lowly earthling, so what do I know?

i guess that habit of 'suspending belief' is inherently part of faith.

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My Book of Bible Stories

by Taylor S. in

i just got my hands on a copy of my book of bible stories ... (1978).

at first i was excited when a friend pulled it out of his bag, said he'd gotten it as a kid.

then i started flipping through, looking at the pictures, feeling the memories spin in my brain.

Taylor S.

Yeah, it is sick. Funny thing though ... when I was a boy, even the threat of demonz laughing maniacally couldn't stop me from playing with it.

Some things are even bigger than demonz.

tS

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If you could give one document ....

by Taylor S. in

Taylor S.

Get Busy ....

first off, yeah Crisis of Conscience would give her an instantaneous stroke. I might as well hand her an ancient dust covered copy of The Book of the Dead, bond in questionable leather. She'd sees demonz leering from both.

And I've also wrestled with the 'why not just leave it alone' thing. I don't really think she could handle it, but then again, maybe she'd surprise me. I don't know. She never mentioned that email I sent though.

I've decided to bring up the 'generation' thing ... ask her is she was disappointed. And if that goes well, I'm gonna ask her flat out, "How do you know its the truth? If it keeps getting brighter, how do you know if the old boys in brooklyn have it right today?"

This may cause major drama. I have never EVER questioned the truth to her.

I'll keep you posted.

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